I am sorry I have not been able to keep up very well with posting! Life is so full with the every day things that my few hours to get them done seems lacking. Just the laundry and the kitchen and making the bed and keeping up with the few phone calls I make and the emails (I'm way behind on that one!), it all keeps my busy and that's a good thing!
For years, I have evolved into feeling like "living" is my job. Just waking up and doing the routine things I do every day, that is my job each day. And I love it. Do you feel that way too, those of you who are disabled?
Thank you to those who leave comments! I really do love getting those comments.
A few months ago, I gave up being a moderator at Chiari Connection International. I loved doing it and loved the people I was involved with. But I noticed that I was spending about 3 hours a day with CCI and other message board stuff, and then having a hard time finding the energy and time to call my Mom. She is 86 now, and lives 3000 miles away, so I need to focus on those family things for awhile.
We just got back from a quick trip to California to see our son. What a blessing we experienced there! We are now thinking ahead to the Fall and perhaps being able to use Sky Miles and taking our son to Alaska with us this year. There is so much "aviation" up there and that is what his career is, where his knowledge and experience lie, so we know he'd love it up there as much as we do.
While in California, we spent some time with the Elephant Seals that are almost always resting on the beaches near San Simeon. Since we used to live not far from there, we have spent a lot of time with these enamoring animals. They seem to radiate a warm peace that affects everyone who goes to see them. I mentioned to my son that the fresh, brisk breeze and watching the seals seems to bring a sense of euphoria to my brain, and he agreed, it does the same for him!
About my health, it remains the same. I last posted that Kadlec Neuroscience Center in Richland, WA turned me down due to my out-of-state workers' compensation insurance. So, I next asked for authorization to be seen by a neurosurgeon in Seattle, at Swedish Hospital. Dr. O has done surgery on a few patients who had previously been Chiari Institute patients. And the feedback has been very favorable.
My insurance responded quickly with a "yes," and then Dr. O's office has requested a new cervical MRI before they set me up with a consult appointment. The MRI will be March 23. I am anxious to be seen by Dr. O and to hear his feedback.
I am wondering if any of my readers experience the same dilemma that I feel right now. The world seems to be in such chaos! Since I am a born-again Christian and believe the prophecy in His Word, I naturally wonder if all of this turmoil is a precursor to the end of the World...to Jesus' second coming. I know that each generation experiences such worldwide havoc. I sometimes think and wonder how it must have felt to be alive during the Second World War, and seeing war being fought valiantly on two fronts, the Pacific and European theater.
To see the atrocities of concentration camps; the bombing of Hiroshima and Nagasaki; the terror of brutal dictators, must have made many believers at that time wonder themselves if this was "it." The time that all prophecy points to in the Bible.
The Bible tells us that no man will ever know the date of His coming. Not even the angels know. But we will know the seasons, just as surely as we know that Fall has arrived when we see the leaves falling from the trees.
In the shadow of world events, I wonder: do I want to go through with an intense surgery that will demand a rugged recovery?
Perhaps the reader thinks this is simplistic or foolish, but remember, the Bible also tells us that the ways of God ARE foolishness to the world.
It's difficult and challenging, isn't it, to listen to our hearts and instincts and also our knowledge of God and our every day experiences and then make a BIG decision.
Sometimes, the way is not so clear. Please help me pray that the way WILL be made clear in the choice of having surgery or not (If it is offered. I have asked God to help me by having this new neurosurgeon refuse to see me IF it's not God's will that I have the surgery. After all, Kadlec refused me. The doctor at The Chiari Institute refused me. Perhaps I'm missing all the road signs!).
My husband and I are planning to plant a big vegetable garden this year. Maybe "big" is a relative term here, as I'm sure we will not be planting anything BIG, just something larger than we've done to this point on this property. I am guessing that we all are, in large and small ways, wanting to feather our nests, batten down the hatches and hold down the fort!
However, the most important thing we must do is to be sure of our relationship with our Creator. We can have the basement full of foods and lots of money stored under the mattress; we may can and freeze and dehydrate and "put by," but it all can be gone in the blink of an eye. We are told in God's Holy Word to "lay not up our treasures on earth where moth and rust doth corrupt and thieves break in to steal, but instead lay up your treasures in Heaven." (Matthew 6:19-20)
Now is the time to be sure of your salvation, which floats within your reach in the form of everlasting life and forgiveness with Jesus Christ. Just as you must "make hay while the sun shines," you must make this big decision BEFORE you die and face His judgment. Now is the expected day of salvation, His word tells us: "Behold, now is the accepted time; behold, now is the day of salvation" (2 Cor. 6:1-2).
We may wonder what is happening spiritually within the world. We may ask ourselves, is this the time, are these the signs of the end of the world? We may feel a bit confused about it all and wish for more clarity.
But the verse above, from 2nd Corinthians, leaves no room to waver on interpretation. NOW is the day of salvation! If you have not done so, won't you pray with me as you read this?
"Dear Lord Jesus, I come to You today with a broken heart. I know that something is missing in my life. I know that when I try to take over, I mess things up. I know I need help.
I know I have sinned, as all people have sinned. And I know those sins are a wall between You and me. I want a relationship with You. I want to know more about You! I want to feel confident about where I stand with You. I want to know where I will go when I die, when I pass from this brief life into the presence of Almighty God.
So, right now, I give You my life. I give You all of my heart and I ask you to come into my life and heart and to reside with me, as Master and Savior. Please, forgive me of my sins and make me whole and clean.
I don't know much about doctrine or even much what the Bible says, but I do believe with all of my heart that You died on the cross for MY sins. If I'd been the only person in the world, You still would have died on that cross for me alone. So that I could dwell with You for ever, in heaven and on earth.
Please, Jesus, come to me and be my Savior. Save me from the chaos of this world. When I hear the news reports of earthquakes, tsunamis, political turmoil, uprisings, bombings, terrorism, deaths of loved ones and divorces between friends, oh, please God, place in my heart and mind a confidence that those things are only temporary, but I stand "right and sure" before You and here on earth because I have prayed this prayer today.
In Jesus' Name, AMEN."