It's from the tethered cord, I know. I was in the midst of a very long, drawn-out dream when the burning pain in my calves woke me up. I tried to ignore it, but I know this means I need to get up to go to the bathroom. It does not hurt as bad as a spasm, or charley horse, but it dang well hurts, yet I don't want to get up because I know the walk to the bathroom will be painful and I'll have trouble with balancing my way there.
I also realize that I have leaked quite a bit of urine during the 3 hours I've been in bed. This is another TC symptom. It's not a letting go with the correct muscles and voiding, it's a leaking and sometimes it's worse than others. I knew I had to get up and change anyway, so I got everything done and now at the computer. Waiting for the Norco to kick in and the burn to stop. I pray.
I have considered whether I wanted to add the urine leakage in my notes here, do people really want to read this? And I do worry that some of my friends who are "well" might think I dwell too much on my health, that this blog is a sign of some obsession and is not healthy.
That may or may not be true, but I know that I am only telling half the story here. It would be an even longer, more boring litany if I recorded all that I deal with. My "sick" friends reading this know what I mean, don't you! I'm sorry you do. But it IS a blessing to have e-friends like Zoe, zipperhead, Scott and others who do relate to these words. And then my friends and family who have written and said they feel closer to me for having read my updates, those comments really add a little icing to my day.
Back to the TC. I cannot wait to get this process done and have a date for the surgery. As you can see, a release of my spinal cord at the base of my spine would have to give some wonderful relief. I'm praying so, and praying that the "hoops" and red tape up ahead will be Godly-expedited. I must remember to seek His counsel and to await His timing.